I know a post has been a long time coming.
I know I swear every year I will do better about posting.
I know many have high expectations of wonderful stories of grandeur and amazing-ness.
I know....I know...I know
It's been a very hard 6 months. I won't go into detail with whining ranting, but trust that I will survive like I always do. The past year, overall has been good. I've met some amazing people and learned many things. Sadly, I've had nothing to really report. I'm still in Bangkok. I still stand behind my decision to leave China. It's been almost 2 years here and I'm not really sure what direction I'm going in. Studying Thai has been, maybe the most, challenging thing I've faced in awhile and its making me depressed. I want to be social but I think as I am getting older, I do not want to meet new people.
I recently had an incident where I got to know someone and thought that it might be a potential long term friendship (someone I could trust and platonic at the very least) but I was sadly mistaken. I'm a very good judge of character. I pride myself and my survival on being able to read people. I got this one wrong. I feel this misstep has made me take a step back and reset (per usual. I'm always resetting haha) and perhaps see I might need to approach things and people differently going forward.
I'm trying to set small reasonable goals of late. I recently feel like I need to have some little achievements (1 minute mile, challenging yoga poses, visiting more cities in Thailand, etc, etc) to feel like I have some value. I feel tired of everything and most humans. So getting back to nature has become a thing I'm trying to do. Bike riding, hiking, and whatever other tree hugging activities I can find. I was thinking I'm was homesick, then I watch the news, see my facebook feed and realize that my mental health, maybe even my life, would be in jeopardy if I went home right now. I do miss you all there terribly and wish you all would leave and come join me. hahahahaha. I know silly, but I'm half joking....(100% serious actually)
Anyway....
I'm not traveling outside Thailand much and trying to read more. I've found myself into more self help andpoetry. I'm really into this book now HER. I'm really looking forward to reading Sam's book also. (sorry for the shameless plug, but I am really excited to read it!!!!)
Well that just about does it. I'm slowly trying to restore my faith in humans one day at a time.
Love,
Anne with an "e"
I know I swear every year I will do better about posting.
I know many have high expectations of wonderful stories of grandeur and amazing-ness.
I know....I know...I know
It's been a very hard 6 months. I won't go into detail with whining ranting, but trust that I will survive like I always do. The past year, overall has been good. I've met some amazing people and learned many things. Sadly, I've had nothing to really report. I'm still in Bangkok. I still stand behind my decision to leave China. It's been almost 2 years here and I'm not really sure what direction I'm going in. Studying Thai has been, maybe the most, challenging thing I've faced in awhile and its making me depressed. I want to be social but I think as I am getting older, I do not want to meet new people.
I recently had an incident where I got to know someone and thought that it might be a potential long term friendship (someone I could trust and platonic at the very least) but I was sadly mistaken. I'm a very good judge of character. I pride myself and my survival on being able to read people. I got this one wrong. I feel this misstep has made me take a step back and reset (per usual. I'm always resetting haha) and perhaps see I might need to approach things and people differently going forward.
I'm trying to set small reasonable goals of late. I recently feel like I need to have some little achievements (1 minute mile, challenging yoga poses, visiting more cities in Thailand, etc, etc) to feel like I have some value. I feel tired of everything and most humans. So getting back to nature has become a thing I'm trying to do. Bike riding, hiking, and whatever other tree hugging activities I can find. I was thinking I'm was homesick, then I watch the news, see my facebook feed and realize that my mental health, maybe even my life, would be in jeopardy if I went home right now. I do miss you all there terribly and wish you all would leave and come join me. hahahahaha. I know silly, but I'm half joking....(100% serious actually)
Anyway....
I'm not traveling outside Thailand much and trying to read more. I've found myself into more self help andpoetry. I'm really into this book now HER. I'm really looking forward to reading Sam's book also. (sorry for the shameless plug, but I am really excited to read it!!!!)
Well that just about does it. I'm slowly trying to restore my faith in humans one day at a time.
Love,
Anne with an "e"
