The hourglass that is my life

I'm not sure who turned my hourglass over, but I feel like the flood gates have been open and the sand is rapidly falling to the bottom. I feel freaking rushed again. I was on the treadmill today thinking (while looking in the mirror) "WHAT THE HELL?!?!?!"
I'm not where I feel I should be. I've slacked on the working out so that I'm not a crazy loon, but at the same time forgot that I need to get results.
I won't go crazy, I won't go crazy, I won't go crazy...to late.

Ugh. Its fine. My ultimate goal 2-1-A. Moving away!!!!!
With 2 bags, 1 bike, A dream...I can do this.

Work on teaching certifications, finding jobs, getting healthy!!!!
Staying positive is the key.

Maybe a strict schedule is what I need. Not sure who will call me on my shit,
but discipline would be a little something I could throw into the mix of my life
right now. Also time to cut back on the food I'm eating...maybe my bread intake.

Gym Pimp...

I've got another lady at work on board with the working out bandwagon.

A few have fallen off, but it's all good. I'm taking one day at a time and trying not to stress myself out. Some more potential newcomers are taking a class with us tomorrow. I'm really excited about people being apart of the group exercising.

I may not see the progress I want as fast as I want, but I'm having a hell of a good

time getting there. Ups and downs are a given. I feel as if its still new and exciting.

I can dance while working out and have a great time. I'm overwhelmed with sharing

this feeling. Honestly think I JUST realized this while typing just now...

As scared as I am to get measured again, I'm terribly curious about the results since

the last time I have my measurements taken. I feel like I've been working hard, but that's not really a reasonable way to see progress. When I get the verdict (cause I feel like I'm on trial and waiting for the jury to condemn me for not working out enough or properly) I have 2 choices

I could a) become depressed with not meeting my goal or b) take whatever it is and use it as a stepping stone (listening to lots of Duffy) to go to the next level.

I'm opting for b. Whatever level it is, I have to see it as positive in order to go forward.

Looking Up and Ahead

I took pictures of myself in my 2 piece swimsuit. I think I will feel that I'm making progress if I see visuals. Plus everyone and their mom have these ridiculous before and after shots. I pray to God I don't have before and before pictures. HAHAHAHA

So I've eased up on my workout. I only went once a day last week. I needed a break maybe.
I turned 30 Sunday and I feel like I need to get it in gear. You think I had one foot in the grave at the rate my mind is planning. Even if 30 is suppose to be a turning point, I feel like I had an awakening long before. I like to think I'm ahead of the game. (whatever game that might be)

I'm feeling exhausted, might be the vitamins. I just realized I ran out last week.
Why do they make a difference...damn it!?!!?!?

Oh I can't wait for Spring. I want to wear dresses more this Spring and Summer.
Not sure why, but it seems a lot easier.

Upping the cardio and varying the muscle strength routine. Not really sure whats happening, but I feel my body changing for sure. I'm nervous about getting measured again in a few weeks. I want to really see if using free weight is something I should be doing or am doing correctly.

We'll see...

Btw, while in Ann Arbor, I went to the YMCA with Eliz and Josh. Saturday and Sunday.
So awesome.

Superhero...

I thought maybe I was burned out with exercising. This is not the case.
I needed more variety.
I love the classes. Yasmin is the best instructor. Only because she is 19 and entertaining as hell.
Zumba is amazingly fun with Yasmin. I feel so good and so worked out by the end of class.
I think Jessica and I have gotten Turbo Kick down....finally!
Of course they will change the music and routine now that we've finally got what the heck is going on.
My workouts with Victoria are definitely pushing me like I want. We've been doing it for 2 weeks now. I'm going to give it another 3 weeks before I measure myself. I am extremely nervous that my hard work will not give me the results I want.

Its just impatience. It will pass. It usually does.

I have no energy when I get home. I seriously wonder how long I can keep up

with going to the gym twice a day. Last week. I didn't workout or look at a gym for 3 whole days!!! Today was the 1st day in 4 days I walk/ran on the treadmill. I've been doing other cardio and didn't realize that "oh yeah you were trying to do the running thing". Time to get back on that wagon for sure.

I'm going to Michigan this weekend. Fingers-crossed I get to do some yoga with Eliz and the AnnArbs crew. I need this get away.

I have a restless feeling that I'm sure I can nap away in Ann Arbor!!!!

Progress?

I feel that I can't really update the blog unless I've made some progress. The idea of just discussing what I'm "going to do" is getting old to me. I will simply go over what I am "doing".

1. I've started, what we've coined "superhero's workout". Victoria is a hard-ass so its a good opportunity to take my working out to another level. Plus I'm a project for her. (I think I humor her more then anything)

2. I'm not guilt ridden (as much) when I don't workout.

3. I've purchased some furniture. Swatches and paint are next. The home cleansing is right on track.

Must remember patience, patience, patience.

I'm excited that my sister is moving back to the states. She will get to see me and my place a lot more often.

Spring is so close I can taste it!!!! Maybe I will work hard enough to wear a 2 piece and not have to wear a sarong over it...You never know!

Dfo out

Simmering Down...

So I didn't workout yesterday. I'm ok
I did yoga today. Its not working out, but its ok

Small strides, patient with progress, stay positive.

I am looking forward to working with weights this week again.
Maybe I'll be a lot smarter and not push myself too hard.
I really should start learning from my mistakes.
Enoughs enough.

My YOYB is on track...it really is.

Thanks you guys

I did not workout nor go to the gym today. I'm ok with this.

Ok maybe so I'm not, but I need to be. I am still sore from doing the free weights on freakin MONDAY! I walk/ran on Tuesday. PiYo on Wednesday.

Today nothing...

Kim told me that taking a class is still considered going to the gym.

How sad is it that I'm not putting those 2 things together. Its a strange feeling

when I think that its necessary to spend so much time at the gym.

I am being realistic. I really want this to work and need it to work faster.

So that part is unrealistic...

Glad I have my friends to remind me of my absurdness...

So I got measured a few days ago and apparently I've lost and 9 inches. An inch in my arms, my boobs, my waist, my torso, my hips, my butt, and my thighs.
I'm hearing that its good and I'm on track, but I'm not convinced. I can and will do more. I have to. I got some good running shoes!!!! I can run for more than 5 mins on the treadmill at 4.9 speed. I'm excited about that. I want get to a point where I can run for 30 mins.
I really need and want to do this.

I have lots of people supporting me.

I can do this.

I can do this.

So I already feel like I'm 2 months behind with the YOTB. I have loss a few inches, but I'm not feeling real progress has been made. I need to get cracking on the finances and the apartment aspect of my goals.

Not sure why I feel so rushed, but I do know that I need to reassess. I will work on some minor adjustments.

RUNNIN, RUNNIN, RUNNIN

So this is day 6 of me doing this run/walk thing.

With a combination of classes I'm taking, my body is a tad pissed at me.

Not sure if i will see any changes as Victoria suggested. ('cause in just 2 weeks, Victoria was getting compliments on how slim she looked)

A bit laughable if I had those expectations. I just want to get physically and mentally healthy.

Other people noticing is not how I want to go about this.

I am setting how I want to measure myself.

(Without measurements!!!!)

I am focused. I feelin' good about myself and the things around me.

My goal is to run on the treadmill for 30mins straight without stopping.

Bad knees, bad back, and all!!!

Small motivators

I ran for the 1st time in years yesterday. My knees are still
aching almost 24 hours later, but its ok. I am doing a class after
work with Jessica!!
She is exhausted from work, and I am tired from everything...but she said
"we can do this".

So we will do this!!!!

Just Rambling Some Facts...

This is the monkey on my back that I imagine when I workout. Cause I need to be shot if I get any bigger or any more unhealthy!!!

Exhausted...

Went to the gym yesterday. I can't believe I am still sore. I know its a ridiculous goal to workout 7 days a week. I really feel to get to where I want to be, this might be my only option.

I'm reasonable enough to know that I need to work up to that. I'm staying positive.

My true test this weekend was going out and not partying too much. I didn't drink too much at the hockey game Friday. Kudos to me! Now an extended weekend with Eliz and her AArbs group. I won't go crazy. I am going to go workout now...

The point of the PowerPoint...

This is to give you an idea of my focus for YOTB!

Everyone on the same page

Understanding each other

Ultimate outline

Double Trouble...ugh

So Jessica and I found out today that 2 classes is pushing it!
PiYo is A WORKOUT!!!
We got a little too excited and attempted to to Turbo Kick class immediately afterwards.
That was a poor choice considering we were both aching from PiYo.
This is ok though. Trial and error. This week is a lithmus test for working out at WWW. (Whens the best time to go and do what at different times of the day...) I am enjoying the energy we are feeding off of each other. This working out with people is a new phenomenon for me.
I'm going to ride the wave and hope and pray the novelty doesn't wear off.
I'm going to try my hardest to stay motivated

Also as much as I keep saying that pacing yourself is the way to go, I am finding that I'm sprinting recklessly toward my goals.
I don't mind pushing myself when I workout, but I need to be aware of my limits so that I don't get burned out to quickly.

Kim and Vikki are on target and YOTB is in full affect!